Lessons learned...second time around

Call me crazy but didn't I learn all the tricks of the mommy trade the FIRST time ?? Why did I freek out and take my son #2 to the doc when he threw up a few times? Okay, so I did get scared seeing the amount and the frequency of the throw up. Is it just me or do all the kids get sick on fridays? I have to admit though that I have been a little worried about my wee little one since i've been noticing a pattern in his throw ups - he tends to spit up/throw up more after I give him cereal. The doctor says 'that can't be' but I am going to run my own medical trials and find out. So, I went to the doc only to hear her say, give your son some pedialite.

Now, to my other dilema... to work or not to work, that is the question that has been plaguing my mind for the past month or so. On good happy days, I look at my kids and I say to myself, how can I leave them at a daycare and go off to work? Will they be fed good food and on time at a daycare? Will they be sitting in their dirty diapers? So many of these questions run through my head. But on days where my kids are driving me up the wall (or they are climbing up the wall), I find myself sitting infront of my computer browsing jobs on Monster.com and I give up at about 2 AM when I hear wailing from my bedroom for his next feeding.

so the quest for answers continues...

I'm here !!!

I'm a self-proclaimed mommy martyr of 2 cute little boys. My first son, Ashwyn, just turned 3 and my second son, Arion, just turned 6 months old.

I am by profession a software engineer but I have been a stay-at-home since I was pregnant with Ashwyn - almost 4 years now. I started journaling about my daily events when I was pregnant with my first son. It was a great way to see my feelings and the events that led up to the birth of my first child. But having to bear all the household responsibilities, taking care of my son and dealing with my husband, to say the least, I could not find the time to journal anymore. My second son is now 6 months old and I feel bad that I didn't give him the same appreciation when I was pregnant and even now as I did with Ashwyn. I have been through a lot over the past 6 months and i'm ready to start again !!!

Though as tough as it is, having 2 boys is the most wonderful thing that have happened to me. I found a poem that describes my boys! Taken from http://www.dennydavis.net/poemfiles/boypoem.htm

Little boys come in all shapes and sizes,
Shy and adventurous, full of surprises,
With misshapen halos and mischievous grins,
Small dirty faces, and sweet, sticky chins.
They'll keep you so busy, and yet all the while
Nothing can brighten the world like their smile.
And no greater treasure has brought homes more joy
Than a curious, active, and lovable boy!

This is a blog dedicated to my boys and I will be sharing my experiences as a mom and will share how having kids has changed my marriage. I called myself a mommy martyr because I always did everything for my kids and husband but always sacrificed my needs. I never learned to say 'no' and went way beyond expectations once I said yes to anyone.

Thanks for visiting my blog !! Please leave your comments. I surely will appreciate them and please accept my apologies if I don't respond to you right away! Having to take care of 2 small ones sure does take a lot of my time! Thanks for your understanding.

~ Sibz